Well I wasn't born an atheist. Time made me one. I don't hate all the beliefs, I don't trust them or believe in them. What is it? GOD? Have we seen him? Through out the ages, we are taught of believing in him, having faith on him but why? Who is he? Omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient? Is it really true? Is he the supreme? Then what are we humans?

Over the years my blind faith in GOD, not only of my own religion but of all has lead me on to a revelation that I myself find it unbelievable. We all love to believe in what we want to believe. But have ever thought of actually believing what others, many ask us? Do we even think of checking whether they are wrong or right? No. Cause truth is bitter and reality hits hard. Anyways, where is the origin of religion? In ancient times, gods were looked upon as tyrannical powerful characters always trying to find a moment where they can destroy or inflict terror upon humans. Don't believe me? Go through the ancient Classical Mythologies. Then came Jesus Christ. What was his need to create a totally new religion, a new way, a new dimension? He could have preached taught and relieved fellow Jewish men out of agony through his own religion. No he didn't. Maybe he had other plans. Its better to show that am a religious men and rule over your followers than become a king and try to rule over the people because at the end of the day you will be called as a dictator. Never mind.

Then there are millions of religion all over the world - Hinduism, Islam, Sikhism, Buddhism, Jainism, Zoroastrianism, etc etc. There is no end. God is suppose to be one but he is identified in different ways in different places. Most of the religion are formed later. Like for example - Sikhism is formed by a Hindu man, Buddhism we all, so is Jainism. Why did they have to create new chains? Let us talk about our own religion - Hinduism. Its a vast religion, vast culture. But its not static. Mane people say it has survived cause of its change. Its changing day by day. For example, the Gayatri Mantra was suppose to chanted by men only, so far was the belief that the work 'OM' was not suppose to said by women as the word is said from inside, generating from the womb which might hamper the birth of child (We don't know the truth). But look at us today, each and every girl in India or abroad knows the Gayatri Mantra and even chants it.

A very popular person has said if you believe in something, you should not be scared of what you have, if you have confidence in your religion then why think what others say? But we do, it shows we are unsure of our own existence.

Why do we believe in GOD? My answer because when we don't have confidence in ourselves we tend to believe that miracles will help us out of every situation and usually that miracle is suppose to be done by GOD. But when it doesn't?

GOD is said to Omnipotent Omnipresent and Omniscient.

Omnipotent are humans, they can create they can destroy. We fear about other, powerful nations striking us, powerful people terrorising us, harming us. DO we fear that GOD will kill us? Harm us. Men has the power to reach the moon, they also have the power to stay a beggar all through his life.

Omnipresent - Do we see GOD everywhere? Do we even see him when we need? Have he ever, ever in your life shown his face even for a second? NO. At least not to me. I can guarantee you all, I had this unnerving faith in Jesus Christ, he was the soul for me. Well he actually didn't last long, cause for me he became a symbol of pretense. Man is omnipresent. You ask your friend, your parents to be with you, they will always be (unless your life is like that of Ekta Kapoor's serials).

Omniscient - GOD is suppose to have total knowledge of everything. But its humans who decide what will be our future, its us to form the calenders, its doctors who saves us, at least tries to. GOD? Where is he in the chapters.

Now many will say I have seen miracles. Now lets see what is Miracles ::

1. An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God: "Miracles are spontaneous, they cannot be summoned, but come of themselves" (Katherine Anne Porter).

2. One that excites admiring awe.

3. A miracle play.

A word having three dimensional meaning. An event that appears inexplicable by the LAWS OF NATURE and so is HELD to be SUPERNATURAL in origin or an act of GOD.

Firstly, LAWS OF NATURE, and then it is held to be supernatural in origin OR, OR, an act of GOD. A word miracle is nothing but an event which happens suddenly, which usually is related with good end and we always have a tendency to relate it to GOD? What harm has men done?

Actually the fact is we are cowards, and we follow the GOD in fear, when we are alone, when we are hopeless, when we are not confident of our own actions. The fact is we don't trust ourselves or our fellow humans and this makes us believe in things which have been passed on by word of mouth. The fact is we love to believe in things which are good, always overlook the truth.

Well alas, I don't believe in GOD because yet I haven't met him, said 'Hi' 'Hello' to him, I don't believe in GOD cause I trust myself and the people I want to trust in. I believe am not alone and hopeless. I will be so only when I will let myself be.

Lastly, I don't disrespect others believes, I don't mean to hurt anyone, I simply wrote this cause over the last one year I have been made to make others understand why I don't believe in GOD, thousand times. I guess this will help them. I might have left out a lot of points with which I wanted to start, so excuse me. And I give anjali or do what my mom asks me only to make her happy. But I am confident about my believe and doing all these , I believe won't erase the fact that I DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD.

Maharaja Manindra Chandra College

The sun stood still

Upon my head,

As young when I came to this place;

Feeling a different warmth,

And people's constant gaze.

Love those moments of despair

When none was there, but

The professor's desire; that make you

Aim higher, higher than anyone else,

That makes you love this place.

A year full of love for the subject

And years which I went on hearing them,

Sometimes in night's darkness,

They appear to wake me up

In their favourite dresses.

Library, canteen and the old classes

Where you could find a cat crawling sometimes,

And sometimes the professors appeared

From nowhere, just to remind you -

"Work hard or you'll fail."

The place is old

But full of culture.

It got nothing

But everything in it.

Most importantly, you'll find friends

Who'll be there when you

Are most vulnerable.

And guess what

You'll find a different world here,

Different people with

Different desires;

No, no they won't scare you,

But just will make you fall for it.

Library, the unexplored books,

Classes and their non-functioning things,

Friends and their awful jokes,

Professors and their unmatchable moods;

I'll miss but never forget,

The love I got

From this still

Unexplored Place.

Everyone today wants change but how will this change come? People are selfish no doubt but they got to be cause that's the only way of survival. We can never change the system but we can change the world by changing ourselves. Do what we want but which won't hurt others. It's called partnership. Seeing your own profit and keeping your partner happy too.

But this is technical thing. All we got to do is come forward and work and stop talking. Why doesn't anyone do that? Why does everyone only complain? Leaders aren't gods and there is no such thing as god. If there was then he would have helped his favourite children. Be a believer of your own soul. Don't believe in someone or something, on whom you leave everything and you lose. 

It is your hard work which will bring fruits not someone's support or faith. Yes, when you're successful it's then you need someone by your side, in happiness sadness in every moment of your life. But not an ecclesiastical power but a person or people whom you want. If you have faith in yourself then you'll have that person. It's called laws of attraction.

I always wanted to do something different. When I was young I decided to study journalism. Then nobody uses to even thing a bit about this line but now it's like MBA. Now I want to do something different again which can bring a change too. What I want is to do something for which people will remember me, something which will delight them and which they can use as utility. A professor from my college calls it dulce and utile. 

I'm scared of time like Shelly, scared that it'll erase my name from pages that I leave behind. Isn't there any way? So, confused I’m. I want to write but who'll read? Does anyone read? And even if someone does how'll I know whether he or she liked it or not? They don't comment. Will I be able to be someone like Charlotte Bronte or Jane Austen or someone like James Joyce? Or like my favourite Hardy?

I don't aspire to be Shakespeare or Wordsworth. All I want to be is myself someone who's remembered by all as someone. But even if I become will anyone read me. So much inside but scared to express, what if am erased by time, the omnipotent.

Human Psychology is the most interesting and the hardest thing to understand in this world. To study a person's mind, can help us to know the way by which we can succeed in life. How? Very simple, in each sphere of life, all we struggle to do is to find our opponents weakness, so that we can take advantage of it. Similarly, getting to know the working of someone's mind can help us win the crown.

But for all this thing, first, we need to prepare ourselves, with basic principles or values, most of which help us to guide in our day to day struggle and help us in making the most of our life happy.

The first and foremost thing is the courage to be free, to have freedom. Freedom doesn't mean the liberty to do whatever we want but it means the courage to be free so that we can work freely, speak the truth, be honest, loyal, seek our goals without any pressure and so on. All we need is to be free until and unless we have the courage to be free, we can never do anything in our life happily and this makes us think whether we can be free ever because fulfilling our dreams will always make us happy.

At the end of the day, achieving what we want is important and achieving it by loyal means with loyal goals can never be worse.